I hate my job

so i need to do things to change my life... Ive been bitching and bitching lately about how much I hate my job.   I love my family and I cant abandon them, but I truly hate my job.  I have no love for the automobile industry.  I also have no education, I never went to college, so therefor all I have is experience.  Experience in things I hate doing, like running a business, doing book work, office stuff, selling cars or other stuff...things I hate.    I don't hate my customers for the most part.  I like talking and interacting with the majority of my customers.  There are a few bad apples of course, and I take a lot of abuse from those bad ones.  But whatever.  I think of what I would do to earn money to survive and to put my son through college and I have no clue.  I don't want to start over at some entry level job in a cube or at a big box retail store.  I don't want to run a damn cash register.  But I am 37 years old and I hate my job which in turn makes me hate my life and is part of the self-hate I have always seemed to deal with.  I can honestly say that I never, ever, ever envisioned myself being 37 and selling cars and running a car lot. I honestly can say that I always had the pie in the sky  dream of doing something with animals and probably wearing a lab coat. But I have never done one single thing to get myself into making that dream a reality.  I always have some lame excuse for why I fuck up everything I touch and never follow through with anything.  My kid tells me I hold him back in some ways by procrastination.  I know he is right, and I know he would be better off with out me around.
to be continued